The P Virus

A trip to the dentist and a walk with my husband

I went to the dentist today. I’ll be going alot for a bit, as I have major work to get done that will have to happen over some time. I never got cavities as a kid, but three pregnancies with hyperemesis (lots of puking) killed my enamel; then I got a few infected teeth and I couldn’t bring myself to go to the dentist until I found one I really like, because of previous dentist trauma.

So my husband I enjoyed an hour drive past so I can get the care I need, in a way that feels comfortable to me. It was actually nice simply be together on the drive. We were quiet for much of it, joked for some of it, listened to each others sharing when led, with open spaces of intimate silence, much like the open spaces we passed in the land through which we drove, and the open feeling of the skies through the windshield.

After a 40 minute wait, I got to see the dentist, a wonderful South Asian woman with so many degrees that her office wall is completely covered in them. She gave me a hug and said, “You’re glowing.”

There is a correlation with the more that I embrace the tough stuff and the more light can shine through me. There is a correlation in the amount of compassion I can let it even when I face very irrational behavior that, to my humanness is instinctively hurtful.

I had taken a walk earlier in the day and shared with my husband about some of my conversations on someone else’s page related to Israel Palestine. Alot of people resonated with what I shared…and a couple of comments felt to me to come from people who were passing on their conditioning in a way that wasn’t directly from an inverted person, but from a normal human who as been infected with the P virus.

Propaganda doesn’t discriminate; it simply adapts to its host or its target host. It can infect people partially or wholly, from a distance and through exposures we may not even be aware of. And still, those who infect others are sacred. I had the opportunity to sense this in a new way on my walk.

Om Mani Padme Hum